Well it is 1:30 in the morning and I can't sleep... my brain is turning and I just look forward to the end of my final tomorrow morning. Then I shall have survived my year at UK. It is amazing how life can move so fast and yet so slowly at the same time. As I dwell upon my last comment... I think that sums my mental state pretty well. I enjoy reminsining of past events and thus life seems to be passing by like a roller coaster... yet I'm hoping and planning for my future which never seems to arrive and thus times stands still. It is really quite the amazing phenomenon and no wonder my head has been spinning lately and I can't sleep.

At youth group on Wednesday we discussed "how do we know we are in God's will?". And the kids came up with it is

Believing in God and growing in a closer relationship with him such that you are influencing others in everything you do.

I think they are quite insiteful :) And by that definition, I feel at peace that I am in God's will... despite the fact the nagging fear that all my plans and hopes will never be. I strive to remember that the other thing I learned at the youth group session was ..

God's will is not necessarily regarding my future or what I am supposed to do.. but rather God's will is who I am. Not who I was or who I will be but who I am in this moment.

So if you have ever felt that dizzing effect that trying to think of the future and the past at the same time.. sit back... relax.. and realize where you are and make make the most of that moment.

And so as the clock turns to 2:00AM in keeping with the spirit I shall enjoy a soothing cup of tea and some quiet time.. hoping to gain a few hours rest before my 8:00 exam. I shall leave you with a quote from one of my favorite movies...

"Carpe diem, seize the day boys, make your lives extraordinary. " - John Keating - Dead Poet's Society